Well, here I am writing more in depth again! I started a little blog in 2005 when I lived and did volunteer work in Brazil…it was lovely and I didn’t worry or have any pressure about aesthetically pleasing photos etc. I think this is the the healthiest creative process. So rather than focusing on social media, I want to explore my passion for writing again. I think that restoring this kind of imperfection will be really healthy and good for me.
So I’ve been a little quiet…
December and January have been months of intensity! passionate reflection, heartbreak, exhaustion, and learning and unlearning and relearning.
I got sick pretty much ALL of January, didn’t exercise, slept a lot, and it forced me to feel my emotions alone, in stillness, in the dark. There were a lot of tears…the tears aren’t over I’m sure. That’s okay.
Life is a journey.
Feelings are a journey.
Grief is a journey.
That’s what I’m learning.
CHULO! My little 15-year old Yorkie, the little nugget and first love of my life who I was blessed to care for in his golden years has crossed the rainbow, meaning he is not here anymore in physical form but absolutely will always be in spirit animal and in my corazón forever.
I comforted and loved my precious timeless creature as best as I could and making the decision to let him go was the hardest Act of Love I’ve ever done in my life. I miss him at every breath, and every step of my human existence right now. It will get better and better with time.
I’ve had some serious take-a-step back moment with myself and my health and I am proud of myself for knowing where I need to shift and where I need to leg to. I’m by no means declaring that all is perfect and I’m perfect and now it’s time to celebrate. Nope! Being human is a journey.
Yet, I have given myself permission to think more creatively and out of the box the way I used to be when I was younger, like when I went to Brazil before grad school or like when I moved to the East Coast and studied in Italy 😉
My hope is to bring back the child in me, the lover of the world cultures, the dancer, the risk taker, my innate wild child spirit instilled by my grandmother and mother. The adventurous butterfly that I am!!!!
More dancing, movement, food and writing are the plan sure but I have also to decided to bask in my whole wellbeing nature in order to come closer and closer to my true feminine authentic self.
Mother Earth is calling me.
The Elements are inviting me to a special journey.
Deepening my spirituality is calling me.
Stay tuned.
I am SO grateful to my family, my friends, and to all of the people who’ve reached out supported me during this challenging time.
Also, I am so grateful for our health professionals, essential workers, anti-racism organizers, and get out the vote volunteers because things are feeling less tense right now. Yeah, I know, we live in a 2 party system, and it’s not perfect..but it wasn’t that long ago that many groups still didn’t have the right to vote and spreading division is NOT one of my core values. Unity and Peace are.
Anyway, thank you for being here! I know how valuable your time is.
I will keep working hard to earn your time in our community where we work on our mind, body and hearts to make the world a better place. I wish for myself and all of you to stay hopeful with the state of the world…and that we love ourselves deeper ✊🏼🌍✌🏽#2021
I am brave, I am worthy, and I am valuable.
Remember that so are you.
Love and Light,
Aranzasú